I wanna share the happiness that im treasuring since then and I think that happiness is something that’s so great for me. I dont want people to be lonely coz theyre much important to me.I couldnt not let myself see them super-duper lonely coz they’re not BAGAY doing that. This 10th
of october will just be another fine day I think for me. It’s like reminiscing again the day when people exchange their thoughts and sentiments.They just cant let the strings attached from it. But when months continued, those thoughts didnt matter anymore coz it was all lies. Lies that I enjoy much. I eventually feel the happiness during that time coz I always wonder and wander things that shouldnt be. I always assume stuffs. I always pretend. I always enjoy assuming. The fact that I will not be that good monster to that person coz im a monster- I’ll not be good dude!. My life that time was useless coz im thinking it’s useless- hmmm it wasnt, it wasnt. How could anyone be so useless that time? I hurt myself. I did. Until xmas time when that person let himself be felt by the nonsense presence with the senseful xmas. I replied back. I greeted. Then he didnt reply again for many times.
Another year has come. Valentine’s Day was celebrated by many but I didnt. I didnt receive any greetings from that person. That was the last time I can still recognize that he’s using that digits.
I didnt know what he’s doing. I didnt know anything coz being unimportant isnt that fucking to be prioritized, someone to be wasted, someone not to be treasured, afterall!! I wouldnt blame him, im blaming myself. I didnt ask something so the hell he care! He didnt do anything. Blame me! Owe to me!.Afterall, I will not-not be heard by the angels in heaven if being legal is concern.
What really hurts most is that you’re hurt so much where in fact no one’s hurting you.
2 years ago // 3 notes
Nakakaasar talaga kapag yung crush mo may crush siyang iba, masakit dun, sayo pa sinabi.
2 years ago // 5 notes
Sana pwedeng isulat ang feelings, para madaling burahin..
2 years ago // 5 notes
Speak less to people you love most because if they cannot understand your silence, they can never understand your words
2 years ago // 23 notes
The day wasn’t complete.I’m waiting someone to greet me but he didn’t.I feel like I’m really super unimportant person in the world.I’m really fucking hurt.I just can’t imagine myself again feeling so empty, broken and useless.When the world permitted me to be with him,i know that time i did the right choice..i did the thing that’ll make me happy and it was.He made me feel that i am important to him but i was wrong- i was really wrong. i wanna let him know that i’m still longing. i can still remember the day, the words, the messages, the place and the promise. :(
2 years ago // 4 notes